The End of 2008 *edited*

the very last post of 2008.

i didn't know what to say.
i learnt alot this year.
i'd grown up.
i know what's right and what's wrong
i know what i should do and what i shouldn't.
i learnt to love my family more, and cherish my friends.
i learnt to let things go
i learnt to move on with life
i learnt how to see things in different angles.
i know how realistic and cruel the world is.
i enjoyed myself
i tried different things that i'd never try before
i'd made a few very good friends.
i hurt someone i shouldn't hurt.
i love someone i shouldn't love.
i made mistakes unknowingly.
i do things that i shouldn't do.
i did stupid things like really stupid.
i did things and i regretted doing it.

tomorrow onwards,
i should love my family more.
i should love my friends more.
i should let things go
i should move on with life
i should think twice before i do and speak.
i should save money.
i should love myself even more.
i should study hard
i should be less temperamental.
i should make a new year a better year.

goodbye 2008. hello 2009.

*i wish there was somewhere to hide

i cant. i cant. i cant. i cant. i cant. i cant. i cant. i cant. i cant. i cant.
i cant imagine tomorrow is mondayyyyyyyyyyy.
which mean school startssssssssss.
3 weeks passed.
what've i done
i did something
i made my room
i painted and makeover it.
school starts,
meaning projects, assignments everything will come
which i hated most.

* its a matter of extreme importance

christmas eve wasn't well-spent.
somehow, something just bored me out.
and attica was horrible.
whole place was filled with people.
but, music & lighting was awesome.
and some bastard simply just freaked me out.
speechless.
somehow i felt that my christmas was being screwed up.

christmas day itself.
home-d and painted my room .
bored shit.

school on monday.
and i've projects yet to be done.
hell. i dislike december in some way.

* what else you want me to do, god.

* i don't know what i want

nightlife was fun.
concert was cool, an eye-opener.
partying at rebel with girls for the first time.
it could be really fun,
i don't know if i enjoyed myself.
music was great, lighting was awesome that night.
something just made me went speechless.

more to come, partayyyyyy girls.
christmas eve, lets partayyyy until we dropppppp.
gonna club hop on christmas eve, if possible.

* what've i been doing all these while, i can't remember.

the queue to phuture was speechless.
full house by 9plus.
rebel wasn't that bad.
wasn't in a very good mood.
rejected dancing and drinking nonstop was what i'd been doing the whole night
while others were dancing.
drinking was absolutely fun to me
it do cheered me up.
saw afew long-time-no-see friends.
very happy.
it was macallan which drove me to an unconscious state.
it didnt give me a piece of my mind
can't get to sleep till 6am.
i wished everything can cool off just like that, horrible feelings.
i wanted to drink more, drinking it all, drink everything away.

* 'am tired, 'am speechless, what else.

omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg .

these are all driving me crazy these are all driving me crazy these are all driving me crazy these are all driving me crazy these are all driving me crazy these are all driving me crazy these are all driving me crazy these are all driving me crazy these are all driving me crazy these are all driving me crazy these are all driving me crazy these are all driving me crazy these are all driving me crazy 

maybe i should just die. fuck la fuck la, i can't stand it anymore. 

i can't stand all this rubbish anymore.

screw everything fuckit.

i've no place to rant my anger on, there's no body for me that i can rant my unhappiness on.

looks like this is the only place i can say whatever i like.

i'd get myself another source of entertainment,
for not feeling lonely, empty and well to keep myself busy with.
i started reading books.
now, i'm on my second book, new moon.
it really nice tho.

and all these while, i've been catching up with some of my old friends.
chatting with them. trying to meet them up one by one.
everyone has a part to keep the bond and relationship going.
and i tried.

i've been spending most of the time with classmates this holidays.
it was really fun.
but it bores me out at times.

i need moneeyyyy desperately.

* it's partayyyyy time, baby (:

twilight. twilight. twilight.
i'm so into that story.
movie was quite a disappointment.
i can't wait to finish up twilight
and carry on with new moon, eclipse and breaking dawn.
i'm too engrossed with that.
robert pattison is handsome
kristen steward is preeettttyyyy too
i think im crazy over them.

online shopping is what i've been doing lately.
could you see how bored i am ?

santa, im hoping you could put a stack of notes by my bedside. (:

* 'what if im not the hero, what if im the bad guy?'

haven't been over the serious financial crisis yet
i guess its really time for me to change over,
probably start saving money, shop less and all.
been meeting up my old friends, one by one.
and glad to see them doing fine
mahjong, drinking, movies are all my entertainments right now
it kept me occupied and busy all these while,
so that i wont feel lonely, neither i will feel empty.
and definitely books and dramas keep me going too.
however, at the same time
money keeps flowing out like running water.
i wish santa could probably drop a stack of notes into the socks.
so that , i will live happier.

* i left everything behind, have i ?

i swear she's fking HOT. she could be my role model


the windy night,
perhaps i'm feeling alil' empty tonight
no games for me to play, no people to chat with,
no tv programme to watch.
playing the same piece of music.
i'm getting alil' bored & tired.

* just tonight, i'm going to leave everything behind

few cups of chivas had driven me to an unconscious state.
wasn't sober enough to know what was happening.
all i could see was non-stop spinning stuffs.
i dislike the feeling, the after-effects.
hangout with classmates was rather fun.
taboo, guessing numbers were our games, our laughters
just these lil' things, it could make our bond stronger and better.

holidays, i'm going to make full use of it.
spend it wisely.
i swear i'm not going to sleep my holidays off just like this.

* hey boy, its you. thats right, YOU!

sometimes, its just alil' thing that makes the world keep going.
at times, people feels tired of living.
at times, people feels so fortunate to have a life
at times, people feels so miserable of living.
the perspective of living in this world,
is depends on how you look at it.
perhaps, i am really random tonight.
at times, i feel so empty, lonely, happy, fortunate, grateful, tired, miserable, stress, blissful, i dont know.
mixed feelings.
'cause i realised i've met alot of random people, whom i've always been very sick and tired of.
but somehow, i still will meet them in my life.

but im still happy to have lovely friends around me!
i'm missing my GF~!
wil she be missing me too? hahahaa

i'm stressing over my papers right now
piece of shits

*lets' fly kites, shall we?