today's work was tiring. somehow, today seemed to be like a sunday to me. dad & i knocked off early, and when i reached home. wow, everyone was at home. and we, the whole family i mean, went out to grab some CNY stuffs. so, i just feel blessed to have them. sometimes, i've been thinking what would have happen if i lose them someday, or even i left them first. i totally can't imagine that. or when it's my time to leave the world, what is it like i mean the people around me & obviously the world isn't going to end without me. but just been wondering how would my family and friends feel. dang, i think i'm too pessimistic. i should be looking at the bright side and cherish every moment, but that's just a phase.
but well, gonna meet up with jing for suntanning tomorrow & shopping !
CNY is just round the corner, and i must set some NEW YEAR resolutions. HAh, pretty lame.
off to play my psp.

nights.

*People Ought To Say That ; When You Lose Something, Then You'll Learn To Cherish.
its True....

just being random, been spending time working nonstop.
caught movie 'the mist' , i've totally no idea what to say bout this movie.
it really scared me till almost died.
so well, gonna spend some precious time for my dear friends.
you know how nice and pleasure it is to meet up with friends that you've not seen them for ages. so Get a Life.'
and i shall be going on a shopping spree with my isetan mates on friday. pay's coming in, and i guess thats the only thing that motivates me the most.
i just feel like reading some books, or even watching some movies tonight.
i've been on isomnia lately i guess.
i just cut my hair yesterday, kind of weird i guess. new hairstyle. new color soon.
i guess i've been tired of working every single day. facing the same old thing.
its just repetition of every single day doing the same stupid thing.
bang, i'm random with different kinds of topics today.
i need to catch some sleep i guess. night people, all the best to me. :D

*A table of two, please.

finally, it's free time!
exams are over, & i'm gonna back for work & friends again.
no more school as for now, less stress for me.

anyway, i'd fun today .
as i can talk freely & openly to my dear friends
like no restriction nothing,
we sat down at some cafe, and talked continously for 4hrs.
that's really very nice, i swear.

some random stuffs, that happen to be in my mind
- read more novels
- go for a makeover
- work more,TRY to spend less
- friends meetup more
- start to save money
- learn how to swim
- looking forward for class' chalet
- buy new clothes, retail therapy
- learn to love everyone around me
- pray hard that i won't repeat any module
- clearing of things for CNY.
- eyecandy!
kind of random, but totally no idea what i'm trying to say.

somehow, i was just thinking that,
sometimes relationship can be tiring.
i enjoyed being single, i mean alot.
i really taking my own sweet time finding the right one,
as in i'm going for a serious & the right one.
no rush, i'm happy with everything right now.

*Life is for living ; PS. I LOVE YOU

the girls that make my poly life interesting!

my advisor ; nigel goh

finally, i went for a swim today.
like been whinning for long,
metup with shihui for a swim.
though i can't swim well, but my objective is to TANN.
but Mr. Sun was moody today.

didn't sleep well last night,
seems like there're lotsa things running in my mind.
things like, swimming, shopping, style, friends & everything.
didn't really feel quite well too,
i'd a very serious runny nose, which is so suck can.

last paper on friday,
the one i'm so worried of, so afraid of.
i want to study, but i just don't have the motivation to do so.
i shall study tomorrow, i swear.

i think i'm getting more & more muscular.
god, it looks abit turnoff but ohwell, COOL still.
& i seriously think that i'm somehow kind of disfigured, FUCK HELL.
i want to be more pretty please...
i'm greedy, who don't ?

straight bangs or not?
dilemma.

study hard & goodluck to me. (:

*你说会记得我,还记得吗?

my lovely babe ; Tan Jing Wen.

Happy 18th Birthday to you; Babe !

god, i just celebrated my 17th birthday not long ago & now you're 18.

i'm god damn jealous can.

anyway,

all these year, i mean for the past 4 years

im so glad to know you, to have you as my friend.

you play an important role in my life.

& i swear, i'm not going to forget 'bout you even when i'm old, my teeth have drop, my hair turns white. i won't forget you, Tan Jing Wen. even if i died, i will remember you still. (:

noone understands me more than you, noone can reads my mind more than you do.

i still remembered the time when both of us had insomnia, we just texted each other through the night. & every single lil' things we had done. haha, how memorable. (:

in this clique; the unhappiness, happiness, crazy-ness and whatever those thick & thin we'd been through. it's all that makes all of us as one. i hope it continues.....

anyway, i will still want to continue like what we're now for a long long long time, so please don't disappoint me.

you're a great friend, my great listener. i love you so, (:

my great friend & babe; Jing Wen Tan.

*after reading this, please be touched & cry out loud ! :D

i'm having tests for the past few days,
and i truly hope that i would not repeat any of the modules please.

no work for this week, & next week.
except for weekends.

i managed to clear my desk, going-burst wardrobe.
& its neat & tidy as for NOW.

somehow, i just think that -
we should just do things that are realistic,
no point doing things that are so unrealistic, it's useless.
it's a waste of time as well.
i've seen & heard of how realistic the world can be
unreality = false hope.
i feel so.

i wanna go for a swim !

* Can Life Be A lil' More Beautiful ?

i drank tonight.
alil' tipsy, but very conscious still.
met up with alicia and friend after work.
after mc for so long, finally im back for work.
im sick, i mean really sick for the past few days.
gastric flu? food poisoning?
haha, no idea. prolly just one of both.

tomorrow test starts.
and i've not mug on any of them.
which is like sad.
don't know, maybe tomorrow i'll mug.

im just lazy, plain lazy.
and i've the urge to go for a swim or even exercise would be better still.

cool,
im sleeping soon.
nights peeps.
there goes my 'study'

stress

i got emo tonight.
i just realised, i've 4 tests next week, & 2 exams the week after next.
and i've not start my revisions yet!
i've not do any of my reports.
and i think my practical test on wednesday, i will screw up totally.
im scared ! really.
i feel stress somehow, really.
i dont know why.
i just feel like don't wanna care everything.
im tired, really tired.
i mean as in work, studies, health and everything.
serious, i scare i might just breakdown someday.
tiredness, as in mentally & physically.
i've no idea what i should do actually.

think about fun, i feel so guilty.
i gonna mug hard this few days, i hope...
have fun on friday again.
prawning with gary, steamboat with alicia & workmates.

there're lotsa people who care for me, i know.
im touched to have them.

im worried bout so much things.
i just need a rest, a very very long one......

*累了，已经到了极限，也不能撑下去了。

bad omen.
i'd been sick, not getting any better.
my asthma relapsed, which is a damn sad thing.
i thought it'd recovered completely while it didn't react since i was 4.
and recently, i felt so breathless.
and please bless me that i won't get lung cancer ok.

and when i fell ill,
i then realised, who are the ones who care & concern.
like my family esp my mum who had been calling me for every 15 mins to check on me.
like my colleagues, and some of my dear friends.
i'm touched, very!

exams is just around the corner, i can't slack anymore.
i mean really not anymore.
i must work lesser, shop lesser, and slack lesser.
im trying hard ok. (:

i think im weak, alot of illness.
hell shit,

goodnight yo.
lotsa things running in my mind nowadays,
and i'd been thinking hard,

bye.

*一个人只有一颗心，只能爱一个人。

i metup with felix, terry & fangyu!
caught movie 'alvin& the chipmunks' with felix.
im gonna find the songs i swear.
hahaha.
i'd lotsa fun today, really.
i keep on laughing until i got really tired.
haha
they're a bunch of amazing & fun friends, i swear.

work tomorrow.
& i got very tired of working.
i wanna work lesser, & spend more time with friends
& studies too, i guess.

been sick for couple of days.
i hope to get MC so that i can no need to go for work.
i'm tired & lazy yo.

bye for now.
i miss all my friends.

*love is like a see saw, it takes two in order for it to work.

today is the 2nd day of a new year.
and its my first post for 2008.

last night,
i didn't go anywhere after work.
i went out for supper with my good friend
then home, countdown with my parents lah.
so nice can.

i just simply can't imagine, its already 2008.
i think i'm still so behind time,
and i guess i'm still living in 2007.
its already 2nd of jan,
im not believing can.

work had been great throughout this 2 weeks of holidays.
i'd so much fun, though i'd alot of full shifts.
but i enjoyed!
haha, i will be meeting felix for school everyday soon. LOL
then i wont be late for school anymore.
felix, joke of the year
hahhhh.

sample sales on thursday,
hurray! i gonna go crazy over it.
lol.

tomorrow school reopens, bored.
exams coming, 2 weeks of study break i needed so badly.
go and get a life, chia!

sleep!
im sleeping soon. tired,
ulcers everywhere in my mouth.

joke of the year: crocodile eats nasi lemak!
hahahahha

HAPPY NEW YEAR AGAIN TO ALL!