everything just changed.
i'm down in luck. very very down
i've never been good for once.
tragic does happens.
在一个人最彷徨的时候，谢谢你在我身旁。 那对寂寞的人来说是一件非常重要的事。。。

sigh. it had been days.
days after days.
15 days countdown from today .
i'm sick, wouldn't you just show a lil' care ?
you had been ignoring me for days !
i shall say goodbye~

take a break - is to walk a longer way.
haha. i'm tired, i probably need to take a rest.
everyday, ever since the study week started. i'd been waking up at 7 , off to study. staying up till 2 or even 3 to study and wake up at 7 again and off to study again. this is my daily routine. kinda boring! hahaha.
count down from now, 20 days left.
ohh dear. this is how i motivate myself. whenever i want to take a rest, i would simply tell myself, __ days left! no time! oh no! back to books! hahaha! sounds stupid ? but it works! hahaa
i dont want to be a nurse!! haha. study hard then! lol.
i'm tired i'm tired i'm tired. yawns. nooooo, please study! omg. 20 days left. gr.! hahaha.
if this continues, i'll go insane one day. hahahaha.

emo message :
dont keep saying you'll be with me, unless you mean it.
you make me feel that i'm simply just an entertainment to you.
i'm stupid to believe what you've said.
you make me become an idiot.
i'm just a puppet to you
when you're bored, you play with me.
when you're not, you just throw me aside.
dont ever say sorry again, you've said it too many times.
i'm nobody
its all with you.
you're bored of me, i dont want.
we shall say goodbye.
let's leave each other's world happily.

hahaha. no meaning to it, not refering to anyone either. simply it just came into my mind out of sudden when i'm bored. hahaha! it sounds abit emo and heartless. it's just for reference, dont say it to anyone, i dont wish to. hahahaa >< -copyrighted-

i miss you baby.
what'd you been doing?

you're making me mad.
you made me feel like an idiot
its all with you.

whats wrong ?
i dont know.
not heartache, just chest pains
sometimes you forget where your heart is

its just out of habit
is that so ?
was it the right person in the wrong time or was it the wrong person in the right time ?
i'm just wondered......

i'm always the one who're there for you whenever you need me,
but where're you when i needed you most?

all questions just came into my mind.

should i trust you or should i not ?

a "sorry" that comes from you, soften my heart.
a "thankyou" that comes from you, make it worthwhile.

its all with you.

its impossible to understand what's going through a guy's heart
you told me that you wanted me and now i've given you everything, you tell me you're leaving
you told me that it was your first time you felt this way, and said that i was special
i believed you.....and it was my happiness
you should have told me that your feelings had faded
i've no idea, and i continued to depend on you
although i say i hate you now, but i'll be missing you
because i'm a girl, to whom love is everything
they said that when you give a guy all he wants he quickly gets bored
and now i know thats the truth.....
and although i tell myself, i'll never be tricked by love again
i fall in love, and my heart is broken again.....
you should have told me that your feelings had faded
i've no idea, and i continued to depend on you
although i say i hate you now, but i'll be missing you
because i'm a girl, to whom love is everything......

worth watching. watch it!

hadnt been having good days recently. what else can i say ? study , study , study , ITS STILL STUDY! what else can makes me feel so much depressed. probably, its time for me to really pull up my socks. prelim is a disaster to me. it probably meant to be a "wake up call" for me . i'm really behind time . whats more. sighed. 5 weeks - not long neither its short too. 5 weeks passed fast. i got to stress myself to study. i really cant slack anymore. sighed. 5 weeks ! just 5 weeks - it makes my future . see how important it is.
i had tried my best , to buck up in my prelims . but god dont seemed to be helping me. i put in effort in my a maths. but it didn't even reached a single role of expectation. i'm freaking out. god, you really got to help me. sighed

jing - i'm sorry. i stressed you today. its not your fault. cause i'm really damn worried about my results, sorry for stressing and pressurized you.

i must do some self-motivation - I LOVE STUDY. STUDY IS FUN! STUDY MAKES LIFE HAPPIER.
oh man, i got to lie to myself.

i'm utterly disappointed with my results. i asked myself, did i put some effort in studying for my prelims ? if i did, i should feel disappointed. but if i didn't, why should i ? if i didnt put in effort, and expect a good results. ahaha. that will be a greatest joke of all! see what i mean. sighed.
result -
a maths - f9
e maths - B4
eng - E8 (before moderation)
combined science - E8

see. lets treat it as L1R3 - i scored 29 . where can i go to ? its not L1R4 yet i got 29. what happens if its L1R4 ? hopeless.

shall study hard. it just only 5 weeks. it makes difference in my future.

well, i'm feeling so depressed recently. and i dont want why. emo ? hahaha. yeah.

soccer can de-stress!

shall go on with my mugging. bye guys

out of 10 times, you aint replying me for just once.
is it so that difficult ?
i'm sorry, i just dont understand you despite knowing you for 2 years.
i'm sorry