Noone can explain, express & describe how i feel now. i'm just wayyyyy too HAPPY & HIGH!
even myself, i can't explain how happy i am right now!

he's coming back on saturday morning, 4am!
and we agreed to meet each other on MONDAY!
i'm so so so so looking forward to it.
everything can leave aside ! and i don't care!
like after so long, finally he's back la.
and i miss him sooooo much la xD

boring school, boring lessons but nice & cute classmates i've got. (:
and now, the mood of going to school is getting great.
the motive of going school is not just to study, but to see friends, gossiping sessions, chit-chat sessions, eyeing eyecandies and all! it might be lame, but it's fun!

i'm going to buy alot alot alot of stuffs ! YAY
pay day tomorrow. YEAH!

meeting gary for pizza on next next wednesday.

im going to pon school on monday, nothing worth more than meeting him. i'm sorry, i might be stupid & stubborn but, it was like so long ....... please understand HAHA (:

mood : SUPER HIGH!
listening song : when you're gone.

you, the one i'm willing to fall for

yeah! i'm going to announce to the whole world that I'M HAPPY!

HAPPY is the word!

since it'd been months and i finally got to meetup with my GIRLS!

and i was extremely happy we were back to our old true self.

we went kovan, our old place, to slack . nah! not slack , sounds so not-nice. hmmm, we had our gathering night at kovan! no matter what kind of place it is, it's still nice to meetup with them. i don't know why. i was just tooooo happy to see them!

i'd heart-to-heart talk & cam-whoring with mao & fio (:

we had our girls' photo (:

we recalled & did & chat & 'whatsoever you want to call it 'bout our past.

our ridiculous, childish, irritating, nonsense, funny, weird, awesome,shameful,stupid or 'whatever you want call it' memories. (what a description!) we read & laughed at 'you-know-what' we did last year! HAHA. wayyyy toooooo many to mention!

and our gossiping - haha the always HOT topics among us. everyone knew it right! xD

before meeting up with girls, met up with weiyang to pass me back something. took the same train, and we talked things out. i told him what was it like in the first place, and how i felt. so i guess he managed to understand & okay things more or less settled! that's a great relieve for me! nothing much, i'm NOT being childish. different people have different thinkings & ways to handle things. ohwell, i guess i'm big enough to sort and think things out! so stop mentioning CHILDISH this word,regardless you going to say i am or not, i just don't like this fucking words! CHILDISH! rarr.

i was quite happy with my results, hmmm though it wasn't like very good ? but i didn't really put in my whole heart in it. so i guess it should be quite good to me! but not others. at least i knew i passed! that's good enough (:

i scored: IT - 71 , Environmental Sci - 60 . not bad not bad.

PAY DAY is COMING!

i'm going to buy alot alot of stuffs!

i don't care if i'm going to have grass again for my meals, i just want to pamper myself!

HAHAHA.

i wanna go shopping with my best shopping-mate, nicole! (:

i must start my shopping list, budgets & plannings now!

so now, i'll let photos do the ending part (: see ya!

i'm quite happy.

happy songs filled me up.

i'm MEETING my GIRLS tomorrow, like YAY!
it'd been quite sometimes since we last met up all. i'm looking forward to it
and we're going to have alot alot alot of photos! lol

okay, tomorrow school starts.
going to school is one thing
going to CLASS is another thing.
seeing bastard in my class ruins my day and spoil my mood.
yes it's that bad!

i was so wayyy touched by rong's post.
i suddenly have the urge to see all of my girls.
i miss them like hell!
and now i know how much they stand in my heart & how important they are to me.
it's true.
though, we were like abit drifted apart.
but i guess our friendship & bonds will always be that strong! i believed!

hmmm, another side . i don't think it really works well.
drifting already, that's preetty sad!
newly formed clique, this is how it dispersed....
sigh, but well. i still cherished it.
at least it happened once before, that's a good thing!

i got my wishlist for the month of july!
*mphosis flat shoe
*NEW handphone
*dorothy perkins tops
*levi's jeans
*white tapered jeans / levis signature's jeans
*topshop
*MORE cosmetics
*MORE facial stuffs
*meetups with girls!

i'm occupied with work. simply work, nothing else. i missed my friends and all! sigh

being in this location(parkway), i felt like being isolated. everyone started to forget a person name 'chia chia' ): HAHa, erm actually not that serious! just feel that, being in a low profile isn't a bad thing. at least people tend to forget 'bout you and less gossiping 'bout you and stuffs. that's not too bad. lol

we going to put a fullstop for the holidays. awww, i haven't been spending time with my friends lo. i'd been working and working, and i didn't get to meet up with my girls la! ):
holidays go, projects come.
projects go,MORE projects come.
MORE projects go, EXAMS come.
oh fuck, is this what school's life gonna be ?
that's pretty sad, uh?
but good thing is, EXAMS go, HOLIDAYS COME! at the same time, MORE work come
hmmm, pretty sad i can say
NO LIFE, uh!

okay, mood was alright - not very bad.
someone blowed my blues away (:
friends are always the one blowing my blues away, that's why i love my friends so much. (:
eh stop stop, i shall stop being so mushy - so unlike me!
oh fuck, too many blues gone, over high!

HAHA

you're missed! be back, will you ?

hello. work was boring! pretty boring.- nothing else, just stand, posed, stoned,think, eat 'hello panda', sms, read magazine, read schedule, write & draw lines. THAT'S WHAT I DID DURING MY WORK TODAY! damn boring.
i eat panda eat until I SCARE ah! lol.

okay, nothing really happen much today. sales was alright. no 'sales bad' from frankie. haha

hmmm, i think things are going well. and i'd stopped thinking, b'cause i don't see a need to do so. everyone was asking me not to sad, not to depressed, not to think,and cheered up. how can i drag everyone down to sad , depress, worry with me! i feel even bad. people like, my girls, my besties(jinghua & gladys) & gary are the ones there for me, are the ones who listened to my whinning, are the ones who care for me, are the ones lending me a listening ear, are the ones who cheered me up asking me not to be sad. i'm grateful to have them! (:
even if i've lost my everything, its still a bliss to have them as my friends.
this is when i realised how nice & wonderful my life can be to have them beside me. (it might sound exaggerating, but it comes from the bottom of my heart)
now i can see, who are the ones who meant to be the true friends and who aren't.

we have eyes to see, don't we.
we can see what's right what's wrong
we can see who can be trusted who can't
we can judge a person
we got the freedom to do so
noone can stop us, isn't it.
we can't follow the way people wanted us to
we can't think the way people wanted us to
we've got our own life own world, don't we ?

COOL!

i've got alot of logics tonight. NICE!

i'm missing you again. ):

yeah, i'm feeling quite good now.
someone cheered me up. (:
i shall stop being so emo, it's so unlike me.

and true, i went to the beach, and started thinking & sorting everything out in my mind. and i felt alot better. everytime when i'm feeling very down, i would just think of suntanning and sit along the beach. i don't know why, it just make me feel good (:

i'm living in my own world, so i guess i don't have to care how people see me as.
or maybe this is just a self-consolation.
okay, whatever & anything!

gary is nice. he cheered me up (:
i made him emo b'cause of me. i made him sian b'cause of me. i feel bad, so i must be happy, so he will be happy. HAHA

i dreamt of bert last night! and ..... i still have to say, i miss him. i'm so afraid that, he comes back without me knowing, and left again without me knowing. i'm afraid.

okay, i shall stop being so depressed la fuck.
this few days, i depressed + emo until like hell, it already killed 3/4 of my braincells. oh fuck

i love my friends
i love my colleagues
i love my family
i love everyone surrounded me
i love to be happy (who don't)
i love good & nice people.
i'm loving it! (:

i shall not trust people that easily again

suntanning was great! i had heart to heart talk with my bestie, gladys. okay, i got a very bad sunburnt. well, i enjoyed! i saw so MANY friends today everywhere i went.

when i came to realised, even if i told you how i felt, what was my situation like i doubt you would believe me either. because you know her longer than me, you trusted her more. so i don't think i have to tell you myside story. what you heard, was hers. but you didn't get to hear mine. so what can i say ? if you were in my situation and tend to know what was happening in the first place, you will know how disappointed & heartache i am. but well, if everyone thinks that i'm the one, i deserved it. fine, stick to it. i'm someone who is very particular 'bout the tone people used to talk to me, even my horoscope says so. I AM! really, i'm very particular 'bout that. up to you to judge. b'cause i'm not going to care anything, since everyone already said 'dont care is the best way to solve problem.' well so.

sadness filled me up

i lied! i apologised! i'm bad! i'm guilty! i'm lost! i got no idea what to do!

everything started in a wrong way, wrong manner, wrong picture, wrong impression.
but noone stand in my situation and see...and listen and understand.
i'm the one kicking a big fuss because at the very first moment, i already got the wrong picture & impression. only i experienced how it was like, but they don't. what can i say

in their mind, i left a bad impression. a sensitive, childish person. ohwell, they didn't tell me. but i feel so.

i got a sudden heartache, very pain one.

so mean everything started from me, so am i able to cool everything down ?

i feel sad, disappointed, angry with myself, stupid, dumb, ass, fuck and everything! i don't know what i'm doing! i lost my mind. I DON'T KNOW!

fuck ass, i need time to cool down.

will everything still be the same like before ? good friends ? i hoped.

i'm already trying my best to forget what'd happen.

you'll might think i'm childish la, as i think i'm living in this world only for 16 years what i've seen in outside world till now is not enough yet. i got more to see, more to learn. in this clique, i've more to learn from you'll. and so ,im the youngest among all. thats why, we might not be thinking the same way. but i feel happy b'cause i'm well taken care of by you all. (: even if everything won't be the same, but i still cherish our friendship. b'cause at least it happened once before.

so, i will just leave it. don't worry (:

hello. recently, something made me feel so upset & disappointed.
as i didn't expect this kind of thing to happen. you can say i'm a very sensitive person, worked up, agitated or whatsoever you wish to call it. but there's something you might need to know, why do i have to be sensitive, worked up, agitated and so, because i care 'bout our friendship. if i don't care, i wouldn't have to feel this way. can't you just simply understand ? you will get to know how i feel. i don't want any of them to feel anything to me, i don't want them to like me, or whatsoever, b'cause all of us are good friends. we're a clique .more or less, this kind of stuffs would have more or less affected our friendship. not that i want to be sensitive or so, just b'cause i care and i have to be. my heart just felt so pain, when you said things like that. i didn't know i'm such a person. but you would have know it if you're in my situation. since you said that you shouldn't have told me all this, then i think you shouldn't. things might not get so bad. to me, friends are my everything. and i can't bear to let any of them to be out of my life. if you think that, i'm childish, okayy lo. so shall be it.

i got an sudden urge to see you. you will be back right, don't you? expect him, expect pride - that's what i'm going to do. i guess so. and we'll have to talk things out. maybe i've got the habit of waiting, that's why i'm still. i'm not going to stop unless we talk things out.

hellos. (: i'm going to blog a long long post today

emptiness filled me up.

working was bad yesterday! i gave away a stupid free t-shirt away, damn! now have to play $20, i dragged jason down i feel bad ): it spoilt my mood la. ><>

tuesday night, went to meet shihui, weiyang, gilbert, iris & alicia. went to amk for supper. okay, i was the last to finish the food, i got a serious toothache la stupid braces. and you guess what i ate, chicken cutlet how hard it is.nice weiyang, he exchanged with me. okay, he always said weird things to me, everyone was like stunned .- nothing else, went shihui's house and stayed overnight . that's all.

rong was nice. she made a video, i was so touched by it.i miss my friends all. all i have to tell my friends are : no matter what, you'll rocks my life & life won't be nice without you guys. i glad to have friends like you'll. how i wish we could just stay like this FOREVER! though we are in different schools,far apart, time doesn't click well, less meetups. but well, our friendship & bonds will never change, and will never separate. trust me, i won't let youguys out of my life. (:

i've got a piece of message for every of my true friends.

rong ( dua king kong eh i never forget ) - you're nice girl, i love talking to you. b'cause you're always there to listen & advice. i like the way you are. nice friend, i like you !

jing (babyyy) - you always there for me when i need someone to talk to, you're always the first to get to know my things haha. b'cause i trust you ALOT ALOT! i got nothing to say 'bout you, b'cause i love you way too much! HAHA

mao de - i might not that close with you, but still i like your advices & philosophies. i pity you as you always got suaned by us. haha and you're missed by me

tian - i might not be that close with you also, but i know you're always there to listen and advice, when people need support, you're always the one to back people up. when someone's in trouble, you're willing to lend a helping hand. and so, i like you also! (:

fiona - i don't know why, i like to gossip with you so muchhh. haha, you're another one who always there to listen though you didnt really give advice,but its nice enough for you to actually there to listen. from what you've seen in the outside world and what you'd told me, i learnt the most from you. and of course, you're missed by me toooo. ><

girl friends, we must always stay like this okay, noone going to change us right?

-----------------------------to my outside friends----------------------------------------

shihui - my ah jie, you always call me ah mei. you're another one i trust you wayyy too much though i only know you for only 4 months but i caught your pattern and attitude and your everything. LOL, we shared everything, our stories, our past, our secrets and all. you're always the one be there when i need someone to talk to, vent my frustration, my complains, my worries and all. noone understand me better than you. thats the thing, you always caught what i'm thinking. this makes our friendship & bond stronger. life won't be nice without you.

weiyang - we only got to know each other for like few weeks, after the birthday party. but i know you're someone who can be trusted. though we always have communication breakdown in msn. but you're a veryyyyy nice friend, i can say. you're always the one there when i faced difficulties and so. you cheered me up when im down. i like you as a friend! Lol. we have got alot of meetups which pull our friendship & bond closer. life won't be beautiful without you too.

for all, if not you guys here, i won't be what i am probably. life won't be colourful, beautiful and nice!

i got no idea what to say, because all i wanted to say i already posted out. i seem emo do i? HAHA i miss our everything!

loneliness filled me up

my post really very long! HAHA first and ever .

hellos. today was okay, working was alright! time passed very fast, 10hrs just passed by like this.

haha was talking to jon on msn, he got girlfriend liao, qiang also got girlfriend liao. what sia. why all my friends got in relationship one. still left me single. damn sad. LOL okay la, he found his love i happy for him la. he still ask me dont sad must wait for the one in australia . siao, i like no patience liao can. now i think is not he change his mind, i'm the one who changed my mind. i'm a freak!

oh well, i've no idea what am i suppose to do! I DONT KNOW

i'm meeting weiyang they all tonight! we're going to tonn overnight i'm looking forward to it, but i think i'll be the first to backout. lol fall asleepppp. me, shihui, iris, gilbert & weiyang~ haha feeling, we like click so much! (: they're nice, i like them ^^

i miss my girlfriends, i miss everything, i miss him, i miss miss miss.
nothing just happen .-

yello! i'm happy today, and i've no idea why
working was fun! busy night after he called me xD place bombed, got big fish somemore lol
and today there got one siao lang, kept asking those girl promoters where's the ROM place and ask her to marry him SIAO!
if i were them, 'sorry, not free!' HAHA
i like working with jason la! can't accept the fact that he's leaving awww ):
i'm happy working at parkway, not that bad. got eyecandies, furthermore food cheap, good incharge, good promoters around, near, peaceful life, less telephone calls!
good counter! LOL

again, you brighten up my day ^^
i might like you, so stop saying i wont like you.

我决意爱他祝我愉快吧你
最明白我痛极亦留下
伤得很重也不怕我愿意等他

最受罪也好听听你哭诉
难过总比分手更好
怎么好都等不到

仍然相信我会有好心得好报,可能到某日会知道.

today was an alright one. went to meet up with iris, went to shop around at marina square & suntec. she bought a guess handbag, damn rich kid.- haha
and chatted, and i came by to realise alot of things
great minds think alike! haha
went back to j8 with her, she went back to work. waited for shihui then chatted
had supper with weiyang, gilbert, iris, ah bao and shihui!
abit emo tonight- b'cause i'm HUNGRY like shit! and TIRED like hell!
i had insomnia ! i couldn't sleep but i felt so tired la!
wah biang ~ weiyang make me feel like i'm so emo freak . wtf o.O
IM NOT LA CAN! b'cause i hungry + tired today mah! .-
whatever & anything
i MIGHT be sleeping early tonight (:
i'm getting frustrated & irritated easily b'cause i couldn't get enough sleep. wth
i hate loneliness, but it's okay i have my friends around me and i feel good.
the thing i like 'bout now - i've good friends, people like shihui, iris, gilbert & weiyang! they really there for me when i needed someone there xD
i like them! haha

life can be beautiful
(((:

wello hello. today was a nice day. erm alright, abit emo at night

i screwed up my CAD studio test again, DAMN!

i had outing with different people at different days. and my holidays are fully booked.-
this week, tuesday - out with classmates
wednesday - out with shihui & weiyang
thursday - out with nicole
friday - out with iris & maybe weiyang
saturday - out with family
sunday - out for work

see hom busy i am.
next week, monday - out with jinghua & gladys
tuesday - out with weiyang, shihui. iris, gilbert
wednesday morning- still out with weiyang, shihui. iris, gilbert
night - work
thursday - FREE
friday, saturday & sunday - work.
who wants to book me on thursday ?! HAHA

i shopped and spent until i really DROP! lol
nvm, i love outings with different people, it's nice (:
i'm going to have grass for my meals sooner or later.-
good luck to me and shoo off the bad lucks.

why do i always see love in one sided only? how 'bout another side ?
mr nice guy, i like (:

wellos. today was a nice day! went to watch 'NEXT' with weiyang and shihui & her another 2 friends. like 5 free tickets, abit wasted. 3 was just nice xD they didn't even thank me for treating them movie lo! haha actually i don't mind la, but it's b'cause the tickets are not mine.

movie was supposed to be nice, but halfway through me and shihui fell asleep! but was exciting at the last part. not too bad
after movie, went topshop to buy my long-wanted top!
saw some stupid people giving stupid face ><
just have outing only what, kicking a big fuss out of it. is there a need to spread around? like so lame can.-

saw alot of friends today! everyone was so feeling today to go town. haha saw vincent, karen and my nice ex-canoemates YANLI~ haha. everyone thought weiyang is my bf SO FEELING~ .-

i screwed up my IT test again, like damn!

maybe i'm not sad just troubled over something.
mood just wasn't so right

he's a mr nice guy (:

shrek 3 was just alright, not too boring not very nice also. went out with wani, nicole, don and nigel. was girls' shopping, so guys waited outside.

HAHA there's something going on between nicole and don. haha interesting lol

i screwed up my struc mech test, damn!

i need time to think
you make me think that life can be beautiful!
you give me motivation (:

i think i found my motivation. haha (:

don't be too good/gentle to me, i will scare ><

you're a nice person. (:

i wish i could

sometimes i wonder, why do humans live in this world for ?

i'm tired .

i'm trying to be strong .

i've no idea what am i supposed to do

i feel so helpless .

i've no idea what i'm doing .

i refused to face the reality .

i'm still dreaming .

i want to know how does being in love is like.

HAHAHA.

I'M EMO! xD

siao siao

study hard to me!

if i were blue, would you be there for me and whisper in my ears that's okay
heartache, not chestpain

my day was alright. supposed to work full haha requested morning. was pretty happy today, went to annie and mingxin's birthday dinner and i just came home! 3plus am. xD

after dinner, me, annie, weiyang, sam, YY, mingxin, weixian and shihui went for beer. haha but me and annie only drink chrysanthemum tea! wahaha. send YY, wX and shihui home, and i can't sleep now!

i miss taka's colleagues, i miss J8's friends and i miss everyone !
life will be beautiful with them (:

you lighten up my day ^^

work was fine yet sleepy also, went lot 1 to relief again. gossiped alot with shine haha. well, nothing special happen anyway.

tek pangseh me again! damn it. sickening ><

i'm so envious that other peoples' life are so smooth and well planned, not like mine. suck it. hahah!

everything is so sickening. RaRR.

projects, studies and tests ruin my life! damn it la!

not happy today ):

would you say that you'll always be there to kiss my pain away

i like to blog nowadays, even if noone reads it i'll still blog it happily.

so much happenings nowadays, life been so sucks to everyone. erm not everyone, for those suay ones. those lucky lucky ones are enjoying their life out there.

when you're so much helpless, then you'll get to know who are the one helping out, listening to you, giving advices. this are called 'true' friends. people tend to say,don't worry anything i'll be here for you. but when you really need people to be there for you, none came.

i'm really feel so appreciated and grateful to have some people there for me, when i feel so helpless. its true to say, not everyone will be there for you when you need them.

life's like this isn't it. angels will never stay long by your side. like me, devil has been pestering me for my whole of going 17 years. so what, i'm used to it.

people are selfish, they think for themselves. i'm trying to be realistic. wake me up from my dream.

i might be cheerful and always smile like an idiot everyday, i kept everything to myself. but i do suffered and struggled. it's ok, i'm hang'g on anyway. just use your brain, life isn't easy . my life and my way ain't as smooth as like others. to me, i think mine are like so rocky, full of problems and shit. whatever! i won't die anyway.

because there're always people there for me! and i feel so grateful to have their presence (:

life will be beautiful, i guess. hang on, chia (: