ooo, i did not see eyecandy for 2 days.
not yesterday & not today.
& definately not tomorrow.
so, i can only depend on friday.
eyecandy, you made my day.
hah! give me more motivations please.

hah, inmatured acts.
childish & nonsensical people.
does it really matter ?
is it very important ?
i see no point why people have to say such things.
and i totally can't believe it with my own eyes & ears.
haha, what a funny act.

it just one stupid small lil' thing,
people can kick such a big fuss over it.
i just don't understand why.

in life, as time passes by
you'll get to know more and more and more people.
often there'll always be people you tend to be closer to, and not.
they'll just walk in and out of your life.
this is what we call life.

people i just need you to understand this.
dont interfere others people life,
cover your own ass first before you want to cover others'.

* motivations, where've you been to ?

TIRED.

BORING.

lovess.

*love at first sight, do you believe?

reshufflement out.
yet, i wasn't affected again.
again, disappointment.
when am i leaving ?
the more i want to leave that hell place, the more i won't get to leave.
fuck can.
i lost all the motivations going to work.
obviously, no motivation working with phillipinos.

school was fine.
so far so good.
more and more stresses, more and more workload.

the only way for me to relieve all stresses & workload,
SHOPPING.
can't wait for the pay to come in.
save & scrimp.
overseas trip yo.

eyecandy eyecandy eyecandy.

*love at first sight.

school'd started.
it'd already been a week,
i'm as busy as usual.
however, i'm so reluctant to go to work. VERY.
i'm trying my best to wake up as early and go to school.
and trying hard not to fall asleep during lesson.
can i just be like other people, just study, no WORK.
money, please fall from the sky please.

i'm tired.
hadn't been having enough rest.
craving for korean shows.
having fun with classmates and all.

JUST MY LUCK.
it is VERY embarrassing.
ahhh, fuck.
so shameful, fuck cannnnnn
not my day, not my day.

@*$^#%^$%#$)(@($#*!

work tomorrow, i'm so unwilling.

*sorry, i love you.

ever since school has started,

i think i feel much more happier.

you know, i do not have to go work everyday.

i do not have to face those stupid peoples.

i'd fun in school.

and i really am studying hard.

trust me.

motivations please.

i miss my friends and all.

i got influenced by jinghua.

now i got so fetish over korean guys.

HAHA, someday i'll head over to find a guy there.

i got so disappointed with locals.

*trust me, i'm here.

i guess noone is as enthu as me 'bout going back to school.
thinking of how sucky the school timetable can be,
i just feel glad that i'm gonna see all my classmates,
and it gonna be a new start.
i promised i will study real hard.
NO MORE SKIPPING LESSONS, i mean LESSER instead of NO MORE.

well, i felt alil' angry at first.
b'cause of how demanding he was.
but afterall, been thinking for days and days and weeks.
i should not be so stupid,
i would prolly not quit my job
and continue endure all the wayyyyy.
thinking back, pay wise is high.
next i've been working so longgggg & harddddd, it's a lil' unbear to leave.
regardless of how this company treated their staffs, especially the part timers.
i shall see the next reshufflement & where will i be going to.
i just have to endure alil' bit more.
'cause i STARTED SCHOOL, i DO NOT have to see them like everyday !
that's the thing why i'm so happy that school has starts.
tho upcoming modules are rather tough, but i guess i would feel even happier facing those crazy peoples.

i'm enduring.
i should not be the one quitting, and i guess you should !
bastards,
my good friend taught me that.

i'm blessed to have such a good friend here to listen all my whinnings and complains.
she gave me advices and opinion.
if not, i would have lose to him & left this company.
she has always be my listening ear for all these while.
for all these while i've been suffering much, she was the one complaining with me,
listening to me, cursing and swearing with me.
i just LOVE HER so muchhhhhh.
in my life, there's one more important person stepped in. =D
its none other than MY GOOD FRIEND, ALICIA.
stay like this forever. =)

what a long post.
can't wait for tomorrow.

i'm trying to be happy.

* i told you, i'll back off so do not blame me.

WORK SUCKS, I KNOW.

i really hate working, hate working hate working hate working.
especially in isetan katong!
i wanna leave that hell place like nobody business.
i swear, SOMEDAY i will just walk off of that fucking building and never return back.
everything was just so nice, it just that there're a few people over there who are trying to ruin everything.
they're just SO FUCKED UP can.
i don't like them, i don't like them, i don't like them.
stupid people, one day karma will arrives & the same thing will fall back to you !
bastardssss. go to hell !
i don't care karma comes to me, b'cause i'm sure that karma will finds you TOO!
i can't quit, i'm gonna fight all the way !
you wanna continue like this, i shall entertain you. fuckers.

people ask me not to think so much.
if things happened to you, will you be able to do so?
if you wanna confront me with that sentence,hey save your energy then.
i would feel even more pissed off.

i played games to distract myself.
i listened to irritating music, so that i won't think so much but it doesnt work.
i watched shows and all, to keep myself away.

don't ask me what's happening if you do not know what's happening with me.
i'm tired of repeating and repeating.
SICK AND TIRED !
people, come straight to me and talk.
don't gossip and bitch around. its so UGLY.

FUCK YOU, BASTARDSSSS.
im extremely ANGRY & miserable right now!

*i don't want to sleep, when i wake up i knew i've to suffer again.

dream catcher.

i wanna spend more time with my family, and good friends.

i wanna study hard, to make my family proud of me

i wanna earn more money so that i could further my studies,

and make my whole family live better.

i learnt how to treasure my family and loves one more.

i can't wait to leave that pathetic workplace.

i do not know how am i going to survive in that hell.

i'm really tired, facing all the problems they'd given me.

i'm so sick of people kept picking on me.

i hate people doing all these,

i wanna cry OUT LOUD.

all these people, will you please kindly stop all these nonsense?

i'm tired of thinking and thinking and thinking, saying and saying and saying, complaining and complaining and complaining.

please leave me alone, people.

request me out.

FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

the lil' freedom i just needed,

how long am i going to wait?

*i don't want to be disturbed, i need to be alone tonight.

Cry Big Time

i don't know what i should really do.
i mean, everything just doesn't seems to go smoothly.
i just feel pissed off in everything i do.
i'm down in luck, and all.
what should i do?
start praying hard, i guess.

i think i should spare some time for my friends,
and stop working my ass off.
i'm tired, i really am.

i'd come to my senses,
i think that i'm just too nice to you, as a friend its really too nice
that you really do not know how to appreciate it.
you took it for granted, and all.
all you know is take it for granted, like you deserved it.
by all means, i just fucked care. alright.
from now onwards, you don't have to care bout me & neither do i.
b'cause i see no point so.
go n' get a life, and i will too.

everything was so mess'd up to the point whereby,
it can push someone to the brink of breaking down.

TRANSFER ME OUT PLEASE~
I'M PRAYING VERY VERY HARD.

*it became past tense.

Metup my babe today.

dine out, had a chat.

isolated,

i wanna live by myself, just all by myself.

i'm not going to complain lonely or what, i just wanna be alone.

i don't wanna work anymore.

bitch, you seemed happy with life.

fuck off.

i can see people living happily and all, but i'm just not.

i WANNA LEAVE.

transfer me out~ make my life better please.

school, faster starts !

i love her, good friend.

*i've something to say,

NOBODY knows how much i wish to leave that pathetic place,
NOBODY knows how much i wish to quit & submit my resignation letter.
that letter.... left pending on my desk.
if it isn't b'cause of that fucking pay, i would have left this company, & that pathetic place.

i wanna leave, i'm NOT happy obviously.
how miserable it is to drag yourself to work everyday,
and struggle throughout the whole entire day.
Noone understands.
well, do you?

like a puppet, you treated me. AREN'T YOU?
a pile of shit, bastards.
things will just fall back to you, bitch.

i believe, karma struck on me.

however, it doesn't paid to be KIND.
fuck off, bitches and hell you go.
i'm damn irritated, =/

i wanna be alone tonight.

*slow dance with me, will you?

i'm NOT okay !

i hereby to declare, I'M DEFEATED .

i'd withdraw from that game.

i've got that urge to walk from parkway all the way to hougang tonight, but if its isnt because i'm unfamiliar with the route, i would have really walk alone.
i just wanna be alone tonight.

i wanna isolate myself,

bye, my good friends. =D

*i'm over it.

NEW OUTLOOK, NEW HAIRSTYLE, NEW COLOR.

but still, i'm not satisfied with myself yet.

shopping kills,
say 'NO' to uneccessary stuffs.

*your smile, i'm over it.

why am i torturing myself by looking at all those temptations.
i made a deal with my good friend, by year end
we must own at least one gucci item. =D
you know how tempting it is.
its not bout brand conscious or stuff.
just tell me, who the hell in this world who doesn't care much 'bout branded stuffs.
maybe 10 out of 100 ?
i do admit i am, maybe to a certain extent.
girls especially, they are brand & image conscious.
which girl in this world who doesn't want to look good and more presentable ?
everyone does, i guess.

anyway, school starts in one week' time.
i'm gonna be well-prepared, and get ready to go back to school.
i'm kind of excited, just cherish the times when you can get your ass to school.
when you get older, you won't have anymore chances to even step into school
just appreciate the times when you're a student still.
i'd promised myself to study real hard, less skipping classes, and all.
i'm gonna be a good student, i swear.
i just can't wait for lessons to start.
i'm tired of working my ass off every single day.
i'm just tired,
maybe i do have wee bits of enthusiatism to go to school, somehow i guess.
i can't wait to see my classmatessssss, i miss them!

i need spare cash !
i wanna own lotsa things !
let me strike lottery pleaseeee.

*kiss me goodbye.