i seriously seriously don't like working anymore.
everyday, everyday minute
i'm praying so hard that there will be simply a few digits more in my bank account.
but it always doesn't come true.

am so tired,
i came up with xcuses for not going to work.

today, i came to realise something.
different people get different treatment
the better looking you are, the better treatment you got from others.
if you were to look fugly, thats it.
people will tend to treat you differently.
it's all about the appearance.
world is so realistic, so cruel.
everybody is so materialistic.
am i right to say?
you look nice, you'll realise you've alot of friends surrounding.
you look ugly, you've no friends
how pathetic, how realistic,
cruelty, the world is.

projects down. exams up
i'm pretty stressed,
i've not been listening in class, daydreaming and stoning are all i'd do.
my bad.
structural analysis, concrete design, transportation, computer programming, EM2.
they're all driving me nuts, really nuts.
fucked it.
stucked up people.
i dont wanna workkkkkkk.

* i won't run away anymore.

more and more stressful than before.
exams are coming in just 2 weeks' time
projects due are stressing me out
work has been giving me stresses and all
whether i should quit or not,
in the end i've chose to.
bored shits

anyway,
scuba diving seems fun.
if i ever have the chance,
i will surely go for it.
scuba diving, why not.
i need to swimmmmmmmmm.
god, grant me with a powerful arms and legs
so that i can swim like nobody business.

*i will show you what real love can do.

time has passed frigg'g fast,
again, it has come to the horrible weekends.
meaning, i have to get my ass off to work again.

work has been pretty bored,
school has been pretty bad.
all day long, i've been looking forward to see my bed and all.
i need some rest.
all of sudden, i'm so looking much forward for august.
i wanna see ka-chings rolling in my bank account.
yucks.

exams just 'bout 2 weeks more.
reflections: have i been paying attention during lesson?
have i been concentrating in class.
have i been during revisions and all?
suddenly, all these came to my mind.
projects, work, school and everything have been overwhelming me.
i need a good rest though, a really good one.
i missed the days when my family were so well-off.
so that, i do not have to work.
probably i could have more time on studies, i assumed.
well, what's meant to be, it just meant to be.

i need a long and nice rest.
im looking forward to september vacations.

* what have i been seeing in you?

its another quiet friday night.

due to the weather, my wrist started aching again.
the pain comes and goes.
perhaps.

not in the good mood tho,
i distracted myself with some shoppings with babe.
how much i wanted to go for a makeover
but money pulls my dream down.

no matter how much how hard i wanted
i still can't get it
how cruel it can be,
how realistic it is.
i don't believe.

i'm plain bored, i really am.
i've got so much to say, so much.

*for my heart has had all it can takes.

work was boring and tiring tho.
there're more to learn
i've to endure and get it through, isnt it.
again, is a new start for me.
i don't have the motivation still.
right from the start, i hate doing things right from the start again.

motivations, where have you been to.

i hope it works well again,
just this time, i need you more than anything else.

*tonight will be the night that i will fall for you.

i guess i've been spending money like nobody business.
i need someone to hold on to my cards.

friday is coming, its coming.
i'm so not looking forward.

i havent been resting well
as in really rest.

i'm going for KL study trip on sept.
with few classmates and year3s.
im looking forward for this though.
looks kinda fun.

*i won't let you stand alone.

manhattan portage, i'm so into you.
i'm gonna get you like august.
my wallet is tight somehow this month.

im so not looking forward on friday
my first day of work.
i'm lazy, i'm tired.
i wanna rest longer please.

results for mst are good, i guess.
i'm satisfied with my results.

mr. eyecandy, i think you're a hard nut!

i've got a new friend today. =)

*look, im just standing right infront of you.