2007 is coming to an end.

this is my last post for 2007.
right, today is the last day of 2007.
time passes fast, very fast.
just few more mins, its going to be brand new year.
and everyone is getting older.
i guess right out there, there're tonnes of people having fun and enjoying themselves.
so looking forward to the new year of 2008.

whole of this year, i realised i've grown up alot.
i cameby to realise alot of things.
more realistic & matured than before.
i learnt alot of important values, i know how realistic the world is.
the different kinds of people.
i learnt how to control my temper,
i learnt how to do things & think before i do.
i learnt how to see things using eyes.
i learnt how to forgive and forget.
i learnt how to cherish & treasure things & people.
i learnt how to love people around me.
i learnt ALOT Of things, from different kinds of people.
i'd make alot of new friends throughout this whole year,
in the mean time, i lose alot of friends too.
when there's gain, there's always lose. in everything i mean.
life are like this.
just do your part, for what i know.

thanks all my dearest friends who have been there for me throughout this year.
thanks all the people who have been helping me out.
thanks all the people who have been taking good care of me.
i love all the people around me.
i hope everyone will have a good start in few mins.
yay!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.

total disappointment.
i thought i would be able to meetup the girls tomorrow night.
but seems like its going to be a disappointment.
looks like i'm going to countdown alone tomorrow.
fuck la cannnnn.
its really upsetting.
when can we girls have a proper meetup?
its been god damn long since we had a proper outing la.
all we hope for is to spend time together and welcome the arrival of the brand new year.
Oh, all bullshits.
its really frustrating to actually get everyone to spare their time and get together.
looks like everyone is so busy with their own stuffs, works & relationships especially.
god, bless me with good time management next year.
smooth work & relationship, no conflicts no disputes.
good enough for me.
sometimes i just wondered,
as years go by, will we still stay as good friends and be together?
will we still able to contact each other, will we still get to meetup?
i can't guarantee that.

oh, today is my granny's birthday.
the thing i regretted was, i wasnt able to go and pray to her.
i dreamt of her the other day,
she & my grandpa.
who actually knows how much i miss them?
who actually understands?
damn sad lah can.

no idea why today i'm so so irritated & frustrated.
in other words, DULAN.
as simple as that.
blue blacks everywhere on my hands.
god, bless me with good year and good luck too.
i will thank you with whole of my life.
i think i'll be alone tomorrow night.
its ok, i don't give a damn shit.
don't ask me 'not lonely meh',
i don't give a shit, it's not like the whole world it's only left with me.
fucked up lah.

BYE!

这世界很真，人却很假。

less talk, get the job done & fast.
picture will do the talking.

they're my love ones.

(:

People Go Where The Money Goes

christmas eve,
i got to meetup with my girls, but not all of them.
not a very memorable & fun christmas though,
but somehow, i felt satisfied seeing the girls.
after that, back to normal.
christmas till thursday, full shifts.
madness, i've been standing for 10hours for this 3 days.
i'm physically & mentally tired, my leg couldn't take it anymore.
i still have more shifts to go
sleep, i need you badly.
i shall stop stressing myself during work,
i think its a torture.
god, set me free.

i miss those who i miss.
everyone, you him her.
classmates, friends, girls, colleagues & everyone.
i think i seriously need more time.
(:

i think i need to get my hair done, facial, clothes & everything
i need a makeover asap!

goodbye.

humans will always be insatisfied with life.

christmas spirit.

i think christmas is a torture to me.
firstly, work extended hours.
12 hours of standing, damn.
hell shit, its a totally torture to me.
my whole body is aching like shit.
& i'm totally WORN OUT!
secondly, me & jing had a difficult time to organise an outing.
is it so hard to get 6 of them out together?
its like once in a year, hardly....
try to make it, everyone (:

A brand new year is coming,
so means everyone is getting a year older.
i think my luck is so down this year,
my christmas & new year wish : increase luck rate by 99.99% in everything.
i wish santa can give me more money, more lucks, & everything.
i'm being greedy, HAhh.
either one will be good enough (:

I WANT MORE LUCK!
please please please, i'm damn unlucky this year.
i really hope that next year will be a better one, i mean im praying damn damn fucking hard.
it applies to all, which means relationships, studies, work & everything!

i want more rest,
sometimes i wonder why is there only 24hours a day?

stress la.
my wrist is hurting me, the pain is pestering me again.

*对你还有无可救药的期盼

went for sp dance's concert today.
was rather nice, but somehow we don't really understand.
but well, congrats to nic & wani for the great performance.
though i really didnt get to spot them.
cheeros.

somehow, i spend my 2 precious weeks of holidays at work.
working filled up 3/4 of the weeks, 1/4 for outings.
i've no rest day.

i'm having bad headaches recently.
my wrist is hurting again.
my brain isn't working.
i'm TIRED,
i'm having bad mood nowadays i guess.

somehow, i got to learn something from this person.
she taught me,
never be too nice to people, they tend not to appreciate the thoughts.
but, whenever you did a very small tiny bad thing, people tend to always remember THAT.
and regards you as a BAD person.
always be NEUTRAL,
i always think that, we should forgive & forget.
i don't remember people did bad things to me, i'll always try to forgive them.
to me, i don't really bother much.
i trying to be realistic enough to know that what comes around goes around.

oh, i'm talking craps again haaa.

i'm dead, head for bed now.

*回忆混乱我的脚步，阻碍了我的出路。

i'm just too tired
no word could actually describe how the tireness is like.

i think i'm abit mad & crazy today,
i kept laughing non-stop.
work was quite fun, time passed fast.
i've got a new friend today.
(:

more full shifts to come.
i NEED rest.
work, spare me a life.
HAHA

i metup with my girls on friday night.
it was awesome.
i love them way too much.
we'd a nice chat that night.
asking lotsa awesome questions. HAHA.
more meetup please, girls.
24th ok! (:
misses.

*爱你变习惯，不再稀罕。

out of nowhere, suddenly
i miss my granny.
the moment i think 'bout her, i wanted to cry.
i miss her badly, real bad.

i've been sleeping at 2am everyday.
i'm tired, i need to sleep.

my hand isn't getting any better.
i guess its getting worst.
ohwell, seeing my doctor again tomorrow.
thats pretty sucks.

meeting my girls tomorrow cannnnn.
i miss them lah!
i've been missing whole lots of people.

god, i've so many presentations nowadays.
1 more to go! YAY!
1 more day to HOLIDAYS!
((:
lovess.

*我只要你最后的答案。

i'm feel so stressful this few days.
& it really sucks.
hell shit.
my hand is aching, my head is cracking, my heart is breaking.
oh damn, sounds so miserable.
HAHA.
nigel always says my life is so miserable.
HAHA

projects, work, studies, test,
one comes after another.
i need REST, seriously.
last night, i've got the urge to cry.
i almost breakdown, im tired.
i've got whole bunch of shits for me to do.
endless stuffs, so lil' time.
24hours is ain't enough for me.
god.
pray hard that he will become a good man.

*对你好以为你能回心转意，可是我错了。

damn, ipod touch is sooooo way sexy.
and yes, i bought it today!
i love it sooooo much
ahhhh, god damn gorgeous la can.
people must be saying im rich, im wasting money or whatever
but i don't care, so long as i like it, i love it, that's my own fucking problem.
(:

life's been so miserable,
& i'm TOTALLY WORN OUT
projects & test are driving me nuts.
i told 'em, i couldn't take it & i've got the urge to dropout from school.
the stresses & everything.
i can't afford to fail any of the test, i'm afraid.
i don't know, hell shit.

okay, i'm gonna mug real hard tonight, no sleep!
& ya, sometimes i really hope that i could sleep forever.
i admit im emo,always.
this is the way i'm(:

*握不住的沙 放下也罢 握不住的他 放下也罢。

i'd been skipping lesson recently, just to visit doctors.
3 doctors i've seen, and i think its getting worst.
ohwell.

shopping spree with jinghua today (:
we shopped alot equal we spent alot!
no more shopping for me please.

i'd difficulties in doing things.
i'm one handed now, and i do the bandaging myself.
i can't get it done properly.
sucks, i cant get things done properly as well.
it hurts.
its terrible.

alright, im thinking how am i going to work with just one hand ):
please get well!

retest on struc mech next tues, and i should get myself mugging soon.
ahhh, im so so so lazy.

i'm meeting my girls on next friday.
& i've got a new BEST friend, haha (:
sweet my friend.

*我真的很想爱他

i've got an useless hand.
i've got a very serious attitude problem, because of my hand.
it just hurts so much that i wanted to chop my hand off.
i can't even hold a spoon properly,
i'm angry !
i cried.
i seriously have the urge to chop it off, or even just break it.

i've got so many questions in my mind now.
why people always like to compare themselves with others?

sucks!
just get rid of the pain, and i will be in good life.

leave me alone!

*不要对我太残忍。

that day, i actually saw this star flying across the sky.
so i assumed its a meteor star or something.
so i stupidly made a wish.
HAHA

retest for struc mech next week, & i'm so worried.
so worried that i've even not yet started my revision for that.

i hoped i will be able to meetup with my girls on 24th, the christmas eve. (:
i miss them way too much.

i've got my pay!
and guess what, i've got so many many things to buy.

i want a ZEn stoneplus, it looks cute, cool .
i want a dig. cam (:
i want ALOT Of THINGS!
i want to be a model. HAHA

i'm tired.

jing. (:

*baby, thats the last thing i would do for you.