goodbye, granny.

i wish i would be able to dream of you, see you standing right in front of me.

i ♥ her.
please wake up.

stand right infront of me and scold me like you always did, i won't argue back
nag at me, i promise i won't get irritated
shout at me, i promise i wont shout back at you
i have yet to say goodnight to you
i have yet to say goodbye to you
i have yet to do so many things with you,
how am i going to move on like this
you left, without a saying.'
i cried everytime i think of you and looking at your photo.

i can't promise you i won't cry,
i cant promise you i won't breakdown.
i hate seeing you lying there, PLEASE WAKEUP!
i really need you

i can't accept you're lying there, i can't accept i can only look at your photo right now.
it hurts, really hurts.

i ♥ you, granny.
i'll remember you

my granny says goodbye to me.
she left,
left me, family, friends & this world.

a FALL took her life away
upset , guilt & the sense of loss filled me up
too sudden, it's really too sudden
i can't accept, can't accept the fact that the one lying on bed, on ..... is actually her!
i really can't accept it.
i cried like i never did before
it was so ........
the one who brought me up,
the one who i only said goodnight to,
the one who used to sleep with me,
the one who used to walk me to school every morning,
the one who used to shop with me,
the one who nags & scolded me for doing things wrong
the one who i love,
the one who loves me,
i can't bear to see her go
i WANT her to comeback, comeback and nag and scold and beat and slap me.
i wouldn't mind, i wouldn't get irritated, i wouldn't quarrel with her, i wouldn't talk & argue back.
i wanna hug her so much now
so much....

she left so suddenly, she left without a saying
i miss her so much.....

i love you, my dear granny.

much lovesss

all these while, i've been thinking of you

like finally, like noone expected it, like noone believes its gonna happen, like how long i waited, like......

and i met up with him today YES HIM!
the one i've been waiting for,
the one i've been looking for,
the one i've been thinking of,
yes is HIM HIM HIM.
i can't believe it happens, miracles do happen!
like i've been waiting for this day to come for so longggg

had movie & lunch with him. (:
we took a photo!
it wasn't nice at all
but no choice, haha
ran out of topics most of the time

we gonna meetup somehow next week again!
i hope it works again!
no more kite pleaseeee....

afterall, i realised all these while
he'd grown up, more mature, more independent
it isn't like normal 16 years old kid in singapore.
much more mature, like 18 or even 19 .
he isn't as childish as before
he'd grown up
so much....

being rich isn't a GOOD thing at all

he's a nice guy
that is why i fell for him previously.

i will mark this day.



awww, we didn't look good at ALL!
#*%$^!*%#$*^&!!!!!

*带着我一起走，好吗?

hello people.

school started today, & i'm bored.

so much things to do.

& i'm going to study hard, i'm serious!

hopefully lah

work 5 days this week.

sian sian sian :/

tired tired tired

there isn't always enough sleep for me

stress

metup with my girls on 22nd, tian's birthday

we went escape

some irritating & f-up people just spoilt my day

irritating! scratched & touched me, made me screamed my head off

f-up!

went somewhere near esplanade at night to celebrate her birthday after dinner @ orchard

iris' birthday today

met her up last night, nice (:

i've got SOOOOOOO much things to buy

my psp slim is waiting for me

my levi's is waiting for me tooooooo

i'm waiting for my PAY!

*为什么一厢情愿的人会难过

hello. i've got sooo much things to blog

had been working continously for 8 days, & 2 more days to my off

& yes! school opens.

this is when i'm gonna be NUTS.

i promised myself, i'm gonna mug hard & work hard.

not going to think of anything!

& my new timetable is really sucks.

registered gems today, managed to be same as sab

but nic & wani didn't manage to get into

meeting up my besties tomorrow

meeting up my girls on 22nd, like yays!

& i'm eyeing on ipod touch & psp slim! either one (:

HURRAY!

ipod touch ;

spots the difference between slim & the normal one?

well, not much difference also

but i'm still getting the slim one!

YAYS!

i'd lotsa fun & laughter at work ((((:

i miss all my friends can

i wanted to do my homework, but i'm so lazy to get my brain cracked or even my hands to move
i've got the intention to do, but something just distract me which i've no idea what's it too

i want MONEY
i want buy my mango RED SKINNY JEANS
i want buy my LEVI's BLACK SKINNY JEANS which i can wear for work
i want buy my YELLOW SKIRTS
i want buy my sneakers / pumps
i want buy my slipper
i want buy MORE TOPS
i want buy my PSP
so much things i wanted to buy
i want MORE MONEY

actually, i was quite looking forward to school reopens which i can get to see my friends around (:

*为了爱情，我失去了聪明。

picture speaks a thousand words, still have more. i upload again.
my jing & ying (:

im dead
i've to find up one day to finish up all my assignments & homework
i must stop all my slackings.
results sucks like hell

i made myself an idiot to turnup for the chalet
fuck, thinking back. it was so sad
why should i turnup in the first place making myself so miserable

why can't i stop thinking?
why am i keep thinking?
why am i still believing?
why am i still hoping?
why am i still waiting?
you, the one i'm willing to fall for

*用寂寞的理由争取自由 都是一种离开的借口

metup with jing & ying for dinner
we 'd cam-whoring session
& some stupid irritating people kept staring at us like one kind
damn rude la, i tell you.
but well, we care?! haha we carried on...

im still believing & waiting like an idiot
fuck, i can't stop thinking
fucker.
i'm emo again, kill me pleaseeeee

what's wrong with me again, !@#$%^&* $@#!!!!!

*沉默是最后的祈求 等你回心转意的时候 告诉我

you know, she has been missing you
she tell lies
she didn't want to
you just didn't know, how much she misses you
& sometimes memories just remind her of you,
& i know it does really hurts
she hates herself for teling lies
she's no choice but to keep lying to herself
i can see.

*你只把它当游戏 我却爱得很用力。

(:

intended to go for suntanning session with alicia & shihui
but end up it was raining
ohwell, we changed plan
we went shopping
& hearing shihui saying all those horrible stuffs
which made me & alicia have the urge to go for a fullbody checkup
eeeeyurrrrr
we planned wednesday to have our suntanning, hoped it goes successfully

went sentosa for canoe's bbq
i was alone, pretty sad
well, i get to see my ex teamates & seniors
i'm happy though i was quite bored over there
ahhhh, alright la.
enjoyed seeing them

i bought a Zara cardigan & pull n bear tanktop; lovessss

going for dental appointment tomorrow
off for 2 days, time to rest.

i've no more ds lite......
my brother bought it awayyyyyy before me, and i left with nothing!
oh, fuck! damn disappointing
i feel like crying, its not the matter of money or shit
its the feeling that matters, when i look so forward to get my stuff.
very disappointing & sad

i dreamt of him last night.
it was sweet
can i choose to dream of him again tonight ?
i msged him the next morning
he told me he's coming back next week!
& yeah, we're just friends (:

*can i choose to love him one more time ?

(:

work work work.

fun fun fun.

money money money.

3 more weeks to school reopen
then back to normal again
work & studies won't leave me
no fun at all
projects & assignments driving me nuts soon after
i must have a well-planned timetable
i'm missing my schoolmates somehow

suntanning with alicia & shihui on monday
bbq night with ex-canoemates on tuesday
rest day for me on wednestday
back to work for 10days continuously

i'm missing my jinghua

money is driving me nuts
i'm looking forward for september's pay
oh sucks, its only 7th still have 23 days to go
& yet i'm already thinking like mad

i'm already planning how to spend my money for october!
Rarrrrr

*只有一个人的付出，是不可能画下幸福的圈。

happy day

metup with besties today
had sakae sushi for lunch cum dinner
was so extremely full
we even had difficulties in walking
Lol

shopping after dinner @ orchard
(((:

i've left with not much money
friends i'm sorry, please don't ask me out anymore
i want MIA

yays, i'm gonna get myself a DS LITE tomorrow or day after
I'VE GOT MY BAG
no more leopard skinnssssssss!

I WANT MORE MONEY
I WANT MY LEVI'S JEANS
I WANT MORE SHOES
I WANT MORE CLOTHES
I WANT AN IPOD VIDEO

AHHHH, SO MUCH THINGS I WANT.

*原来到最后什么都没有

arlow, life have been good

went back peicai on 31st, well i was so happy & excited to see everyone, my ex schoolmates
i felt so touched & wanted to cry
that kind of feeling, its pretty nice ohwell hard to explain
& everyone has changed, girls becoming more & more prettier
guys becoming more & more handsome
it's really nice, i like that kind of feel whereby you get to see those peeps who didn't get to see for long (:
it's nice to meetup with my girls, i MISS them ALL.

work occupied me
i wish i could work all the way, & not studying
i hate studying! my course especially
totally 'turnoff' for me
maybe i should look out for better job from now on

had steamboat with josh & jacky last night
celebrated our 'hitting of target'
everyone gets commission
they're nice, they treated me!
that's what so nice being a part-timer

metup with jinghua just now
went IT fair
i desire for a DS LITE!
i want! i WANT!
IPOD VIDEO will be nice too
i don't mind having PSP instead of DS LITE.
I WANT A DS LITE & IPOD VIDEO!

I WANT MORE CLOTHES
I WANT MORE SHOES
I WANT MORE BAGS
I WANT MORE MONEY
I WANT A DS LITE
I WANT A IPOD VIDEO

alright, that's my wishlist for september & october

well, hunt for songs again.
ALRIGHT~ bye (:
i love my days

*爱情是占有吗？