projects

him

presentations

work

exams

are all over my head right now.

i've got nothing to say tonight.
byebye!

((((((:

happy.

yay!

I'mStupid.

i let chances slipped off my hands like this.

ahhhh, i can't believe i'm such an idiot, bang the wall & die.

and i'm serious now.

i've got no idea what i should do!

sucks cannnnn :/

以前的我，眼里只有他而忽略了你的存在。

现在的我，眼里只有你没有别人了。

L.O.V.E

aiya, why am i so stupid?!

i regretted liao cannnnn.

used to have alot of chances & opportunities, and i just let it off so easily without knowing.

dumb la me can. i'm a noob.

i regretted for not calling you when you asked me to.

i regretted for not giving you wakeup calls when you wanted me to.

i regretted for not showing any interest in talking to you.

aiya, i'm stupid stupid stupid!

kill me cannnnnn :/

面对爱情，我是一个白痴。

HIGH HIGH HIGH !

super high cannnnn XD

god knows why i'm so high! (:

life's been great!

work was fine :/

and i suddenly think of him again

those were the days.

the days when we were smsing throughout the nights and days.

even bother to wake up in the middle of the night, just to reply a message.

the days when we were smsing 24hrs non-stop, morning till night, night till morning.

even bother to sms like 3am in the morning and sacrificed our sleeps and went to school the next morning.

the days when i really need people to stand by me, and you did it.

the days when loneliness filled me up, but you filled up most of it.

the days when illness struck me, you even suggested to bring food over all the way from dont-know where.

the days when i need encouragements & motivations most, you gave me all.

the days when stress was pestering me, you asked me not to worry, everything will be fine.

the days when i was having exams, you gaved me a 'good luck kiss'.

the days when he did something bad to me, you were there to do something good to cheer me up.

the days when you told me 'babe, don't worry. i'll be right here xD'

the days when i was really down,you told me 'it's raining. are you crying? don't cry babe, it will only rains when you cry.'

the days when both of us got emo together, and we were always like that.

the days when we were 'bout to head for bed, you said 'goodnight baby'

the days when you always came and disturbed me with your 'hello, miss me?'

the days when i needed you the most, you left.

what you only left for me, was just your 'smile babe'

and i miss you the most.

those were really the days.

and i'm really missing you.

alright, i'm emo again.

爱上另外一个他， 是为了忘了以前的他。

it's 12:34am now.
and i'm still reluctant to head for bed.
i've got lesson at 8am in the morning and by right i should be heading for bed

don't know whyyyy. super bored!
i think i'm waiting for something, but i've got no idea what's it.
it makes me don't have the feel to sleepppp.

and i think i'm sick :/

oh, they called me up again!
i picked up the call like finally.
they asked me if i wanted to meetup with them together with nic, so that she could explain what's it like to us.
so i told her to get back to us in few days' time.
so prolly she will call again tomorrow or day after.
HOW.
if he doesn't want me to go, then i won't HAHA :X

and stupid company doesn't want to hire anymore people!
rarr, shit!
made me and alicia happy for nothing.-

alright, its 12:40am now
i should do some reflections before i go for my meditation. (:

gary's birthday todayyyyyy.
he's enjoying now! and i'm suffering here :/
sick cannnnnn :X

*我每天假装开心害怕你离去。

bad day today.
thanks to my tummy and whatever.

i puked 3 times today :/
i've got diarrea also.
sucks can!
i've left with no strength and energy
and i went for work at 1.30 yet i reported sick and went home at 5.30.
eh sucks :X

i've got my buying list out already!
and i'm super duper looking forward for my payday (:

buying list for Aug!
- mphosis bag
- more tops
- skirts
- red skinny jeans
- cardigan
- watch
- wallet

hahaha.
it's not doing me good at this rate.
i'm spending & wasting money like water?
HOW! i've alot of things to buyyyy. ):

they didn't call me today.
so probably they've given up on me ? b'cause i didn't pick up their calls ?
oh. don't know la.

that's all for today.
don't know what to say.
byebye!

she's so in love with him.
我愿意爱他，祝我愉快吧

YAY! great day i've got today. (:

metup with jinghua and gladys. my childhood friends (:

we went shoppingggggg. <3
i spent like $100+ today! omggggg
i bought a cardigan for myself and gladys ( her b'day present), vintage tee and everlast shoe!
jinghua bought her tops, which i think is cute! (: *jinghua, u still can wear it for classes HAHA sometimes must change style abit! we shall buy skirts and wear for classes! *

they called me again!
but it was a missed again. how, i want give it a try.
but i'm so afraid it's a scam. ><
i don't know, should i or should i not?

memories brought all of us together.
i miss the days when we were still young and innocent.
the fun we had, the laughter we've got, the outing together and everything.
we brought up the past and memories. (:
and i miss 'em all. ):
6 years ago, the secrets we shared, the memories we've got, the laughter we had, the sadness, the happiness, the whinnings, and everything brought 3 of us together.
6 years later, things remain unchanged.
i hope many years later, we're still like what we're now (:

we brought up the past, things like happened years, months, weeks and days ago.
and i felt so depressed so sudden for god knows why.
i miss the past.
i miss everything.
i don't know what i missed.

i've got my buying list for aug.
shall post it up the next entry. (:

nights.
and YAY! i'm happy.
he wore the watch i bought for him xD

*你当我是知己我看得到，我当你是一生前途

great! i finally like get to sleeep for more than enough hours. yet, i still feel so tired la

i got back to work, back to my counter. (: alot better than scotts promo! feeling good.

alright, yesterday was great! HIGH & HAPPY day!
went out with nic, wani, don & nigel.
haha, stupid nigel's joke made me and nic laughed till mad, and we cried because of his joke! LOL, laughed till cry. ><
had shopping with them (: me and nic bought mango's tanktop! (:
i love shoppppinggggg <3

tomorrow off day! meetup with jinghua & gladys for shopppinnggg again! cheers

modelling academy, should i or should i not.
both of us, nic and me. how!
should i or should i not ?
.......

ya right, pizza meal. NEXT TIME, and i guess that time won't arrive!
gary's birthday is coming, AND I'M NOT HAPPY! ><

**
he, the one who've got a sweetheart. but, she, the one who've got a brokenheart.
and till now, i'm still looking at 'smile babe' every single moment (:
**

out of sudden, i felt so depressed for god knows why.

at that moment you hold my hand and lead me through the darkness, i wish everything could stop for a moment and stayed longer.

today was fine. SUPER HIGH!

i paid alot of attention in class okay! and i did my part for project! no more slacking anymore, erm still have la abit.

i'm totally turned off for btm! i hate btm! hate it hate it! makes me feel so much like construction worker - bangala! suck can ><

he's busy. busy busy busy. no time to talk to me.

training training training is all he could do.

5 more weeks to his competitions, may the watch bless him and bring him luck (:

i'mmissingyoualreadyyyyy

projects sucks, work sucks, life sucks, school sucks, everything sucks.

but FRIENDS and CLASSMATES rocks my life. (:

i'm missing my girlfriends alreadyyyyyy!

when can i have enough sleeepppppp?!

I LOVE THEM! LOVES;;

they're the reason why i go school for. (:

great day i've got today.

i overslept again, and i paid attention in class. just that i pon-ed environmental science again.-

went clementi to play pool with sab, don, nigel, nicole and wani. then nicole high! her alvin came along. HAHA sweettttsssss. i jealous HAHA
they played pool, i sat at a corner sleeping HAHA
then finally i woked up, went to play arcade with wani and don! HAHA so cool!

and oh ya! i'd a free lunch today! interesting
free pizza meal HAHA so cool la can.
embarrassing meh? this is called FREE lunch! ><

guys went back for environmental science, metup with gary to pass him his birthday present (:
and yay! he likes it! and i'm happy. hehe
is a lucky watch, haha which makes sure he wins all his matches xD

i've got my green topshop tanktop, like YAY!
(:
should start planning my wishlist for august .
study more, work less, OUTING MORE!
i should do something for my studies, i think i really should. i MUST start mugging. i think so. you think i can? hopefully


'smile babe' was meant to be the past, and i think i should let it be the past

FUCK OFF, is the words i wanted to sayyyyy!

don't know why.
super tired, super angry, super irritated, super pissed and whatever you want to call it.

'dont need to talk everyday what' . fuck, then why you everyday msged me in the first place which i now have a habit of waiting for you message everyday! IRRITATING LA CAN!

i will TRY not to talk to you everyday anymore.

fuck, why does tragic only happens to me!

BecauseI'mNotTheOneYouWanted, IfNotI'llWantToBeYours.

life is bored

metup with jinghua and gladys, and we talked alot.
we managed to psycho gladys to come sp hehe

life's bored
no life, working's bored, everything to me is boring now. i've got no mood to do anything
i want to sleepppp, but i can't put myself to sleep yet.
i'm waiting for him to talk to mee.......XD
alright, life's sucks.


付出的一切值不值得，永远不会有答案

today was GREAT!

i was SOOOO-WAYYYYY happy! XD

watched transformer today with gary. and transformer WAS GREAT! (:

nice show indeed. alright, while we was out and we saw alot of his friends.-

okayy whatever haha. he bought me a cute small bear haha $4, got $5 off. HAHA but i like (:

haha, i'd cam-whoring with nic and wani almost EVERYDAY! XD

this is nic (: my shopping + cam-whoring mate

104th post ; nice (:

working was fine. mood was good. mentally & physically tired
kbox-ed with gil,iris & shihui after work. we sang all the way from 1130 to 4. alright, i was 3/4 dead around 2plus. reached home 4plus, fell asleep immediately and off for work at 12plus.

VERY TIRED LA!

i've got a new in-charge again soon ):
have work less than 2 months in Parkway, yet i've changed 2 in-charges - pretty sad.

i want Mphosis slipper! i want i want i want! ><

meeting gary on monday for PIZZA and MOVIE i think.

okay, im seriously tired. off for pokemon before i head for bed.

loneliness filled me up

而当你最后选择了逃避, 我学会不公平

103rd post ; happy (:

today was great!

i had my OC presentation early in the morning, and i was like 'omg, die. so nervous' and we were like dressed up in formal wear.

okay, finally presentation was over, what's coming up next will be individual presentation ; and i think i'm gonna die on that.

we LOVE cam-whoring! haha XD

had shopping today ; my shopping-mate : NICOLE!

haha, don, sab, wani & emmerson (don's friend) came along as well.

we went bugis then town.

okay, i counselled don. but he just doesn't seems to understand, get the idea and stubborn .-

alright, i'll let photos do the ending. pokemon-ing XD

nicole;

wani, nicole & sabwani ;

sab ;huiling;

okay, i look super fair for the last photo! damn.

WE LOVE CAM-WHORING! (:

102nd post ; chinese emo post

既然你选择保持沉默，我就选择离开。
你不需要逃避，我会慢慢的离开。
我不会很伤心，没有伤心到要掉眼泪的那种， 我只是很生气，很失望。彻彻底底的失望，因为我对你抱着太多的希望。
我们不能当最完美的情人，可是我们可以当最好的朋友。
谢谢你，在我心里留下最美的痕迹。
谢谢你所给我的回忆。
谢谢你在我最需要依靠的时候，陪在我身边.
谢谢你在我最难过伤心的时候，陪在我身边
谢谢你在我最失落的时候，不离不弃的陪在我身边
谢谢你在我最需要鼓励和勇气的时候，给了我一切。
至少我知道我们曾经有过，我不会感到遗憾反而感到开心
我会永远把你放在我心里，一个没人知道的地方。

；我曾经爱上了一个我不该爱的人而那就是你，就是曾经而不是现在。因为我已经把你放在我回忆里。希望我们还是朋友。（：

;i'm happy and i'm not sad . this is what life is gonna be, i have to accept it. this is how realistic & cruel world is. everyone has to face it, so do i - so do you ! (:

101st post ; emo post

tell me everything will be fine
tell me everything will be over soon
tell me i'm gonna be alright
tell me he's doing me good for that
tell me it was just a dream
tell me to wake up from it
tell me to face the realistic
tell me nothing's going wrong
tell me it's all my imagination
tell me it's all my illusions
tell me it's not meant to be like this
tell me sweet comes after bitter
tell me promises are nothing, it just meant to be a word with no meanings
tell me it's nothing
tell me it's fine
tell me no worries, i'm gonna be fine.
tell me Smile Babe.

HEART BLEED LOVE DIES

hold me tight, i'm gonna waste another 1 month on you.
let's everything start afresh, will you ?
i hate to lose you ):
命运却逼得我低头

first post of the month, july. the 100th post i've hit.

he's back, but well he seems like another person. his return really makes me happy ? well, i think it makes me feel even more terrible, i guess. that's pretty sad. i just don't even know whether we can get to meet up even 1 time in this one month time. okay i'm not too sad, i just have no idea what i should do. everything feels so surreal and so different. so much worries, life are hard, don't it ? sucks can

work was good! sales was great, which made me so happy and so motivated to push more sales! it was great when there're customers. but it's sucks to have no customer at ALL!

i don't know what should i blog about. pretty lame.

i'm tired.

i'd a very nice necklace with shihui. its 'best friend' a very nice one.

i've got the 'best' and she got the 'friend'

the 'best' word looks more like 'bert' i didn't notice it when until i wore it and take a good look at it then i realised 'eh it looks more like beRt then beSt' xD

BEST

Friend